23 February, 2011

Mother in Law Rant

I don't like errands from my mother in law.  She wants me to take, develop and mail a 4x6 photo of the boys.  When I said I can email her some pictures, she gave me a million reasons why that wouldn't work.  Sure put the burden on me!  So I gave her my honest answer and told her I didn't like having to do those things, as it is not as easy as one would think... drive here, there, boys in and out of the car, my travel time etc.

I don't live in a little city, I live in a sprawled out place and who develops pictures anymore?   A task like this will end up taking me the better part of an afternoon.  Really, this is what I need just because she is unwilling to develop a picture from her email?  Why am I tasked for her? 

This drives me nuts and as I just smiled and didn't say anything else, I know in my heart I will not do this.  I will send her some photos online and suggest she have them printed off of snapfish or any other online printing source. 

Reality is that I am very busy!  I constantly struggle with time for schooling, keeping house.. laundry, making meals, and oh yeah, I also do consulting for a small family restaurant, working on a Reiki Training for May, considering co-creating a homeschool co-op, trying to network and find resources like raw milk, CSAs, food co-ops, trying to daily improve our health and well being... making gifts for people via knitting, managing finances, planning our trips and such... I mean I am busy!  There are more things going on and I don't need other people's errands.  Please don't task me for your sake.  I have so many projects on my plate and I have 3 people in this family besides me that take precedent. 

BTW... when I was able to send photos to them now and then long time ago, less on my plate actually, they didn't appreciate them.  I received a huge stack of photos I had given them back.  So where is the justice here? 

Ugh ugh.  That is all I have to say for today. 

02 February, 2011

Groudhog's Day ...I RESURFACE!

Last post was the last day of the year.  Finally, much like the groundhog, I crawl out of my blogging cave to resurface! 

I admit to spending too much time over in Facebook Land, which I was much opposed to in the beginning.  However, I find most of what I do over there is focused on activism and keeping up on issues that are important to me.  I am very concerned with our food supply and keep up on the organic fight to non GMO foods.  Also I follow an author there who is in the thick of uncovering the truth about women in our religious herstory.  What a different world we would live in if the men of the past didn't cover up and scandalize those beautifully strong women. 

So FB is my way to stay connected to issues and I almost always prefer a good solid email between friends.  Blogging has taken the back seat as I haven't been in the pensive mode lately.  Granted we were relocating, house hunting, setting up the house, homeschooling etc, but I am trying to figure out what needs to happen in this space and haven't found out the purpose yet.  I feel changes coming and I need to give it the time and space for it to arrive I guess.

In the meantime, I posted a response to a fellow blogger taking about the "other" woman... the one who we were before marriage, children, homemaking etc.

Here is my take on my own journey in realizing there was another woman.

"Yes, I understand this one perfectly. It took me a while to get out of meeting babies needs… then it was figure out how to live on one income… then it was relocating to South Florida.. then it was figuring out how to be a homeschooling mom, which led to a homeschooling family…then another relocation which brought about so many skeletons…then finally we found our home which brought renovations…and finally today or really the start of this year, I am coming to terms with the other woman. I have started to carve out time for me, after getting others settled into their lives. It takes us by storm becoming wives, mothers etc. We lose ourselves, because we know how important it is to make those around us comfortable. Thankfully, I found the time to focus inward and to realize I was always there, just waiting, like at the train station for a train that would finally come. I am ready to board my train too now and figuring out my destination has opened up so many possibilities! I also enjoy the thought I have like minded companions on the train via the blogs I read and the journey’s we all seem to want."

Hope you are all on the journey you need to be!