30 April, 2009

What is on my mind...

In an effort to make a post today, I was hard pressed to find one solitary topic. As in the case of having a conversation with a friend, one topic tends to lead to another and another and before you know it, a couple hours have passed and you just solved the world's financial crisis!

Well, not that I am going to solve any crisis here, but I am going to meander with what is on my mind today...

What is on my mind...

1. I love seeing my youngest accomplish something with such accomplishment that he just has to show me with the biggest smile. (This makes me gush)!

2. Swine flu.... like any other flu is a virus that will grow in strength if it meets resistance. I wish we could get rid of the antibacterial soaps, flu vaccines and learn to wash our hands, practice healthy food production, cultivation and delivery. I am so bothered by the fact that so many people are creating a demand for these vaccines that don't protect you from this year's latest and greatest flu... it just cause the viruses to become more dangerous! Why does the media propagate the scare and not present all the facts???

3. There was a post I read yesterday that really made me smile. I did intend to dedicate an entire post in a similar fashion. Well, you can see I didn't do it. So here goes... Things that inspire my heart... singing, dancing, cooking something really yummy... coloring. Well this is a good start.

4. Recently, I have found a new friend who values organic foods. She has been a wealth of knowledge and very giving of her resources. Because of her, I have joined a produce coop, looking to place an order for wholesale organic products and may venture into buying direct from the farm for grass fed beef, raw milk etc. I am very happy to have found the right contacts to keep my family nourished.

5. The dreams and sleeping are great these days. I love my sleep, feel that the dreams are really working through me and bringing me greater insights. There are also the confirmation dreams that keep me in check.

6. Concerned lately about some friendships. It seems the distance and changes we all experience are starting to fray the edges of some once "seemingly" strong bonds. We all go through changes, it is constant. We meet knew people that bring something extra to our lives and we grow from that experience. It would be foolish to think that nothing would change. However, the distance certainly doesn't help bring together those relationships. It is harder to stay connected, stay in tune. Maybe being "in tune", is the hardest thing to do, even with the variety of ways to communicate. So many nuances are lost and one sentence or word is misinterpreted to mean something altogether different from the intention. What to do? Well I guess just keep plugging along. There are hills and valleys in life and maybe with some of my friends we are not on the same plain, but then again, in a month we may meet up. That is okay with me, but is it okay with them?

7. Welcomed a new member of our family to the world this past week, Olivia Pearl is my newest niece. My sister-in-law had her baby. This marks the first girl on hubbies side, so she is officially the princess. I pray that she is able to make it through life with peace and grace. This will be a challenge for her, but we can all pray it becomes an adventure!

8. Speaking of babies... hubbie and I have reopened the talk to have another. Hubbie even called me the other day from work to pass on a couple of girl name ideas! This is amazing, considering the fact that he is never one to indulge my fantasies like this. But we have settled on a name for a girl and it is packed with numerological significance! Now, about making the baby... well we haven't agreed to do that just yet, but he is starting to give me indications maybe sooner than later.

9. Life is really great for us. Eve though the boys want a bathtub, garage, fenced yard, we still seem to make it pleasant here for us. I am okay. Usually, I am not the one to be so positive about things but lately, I am taking up the banner for gratitude and usually am thankful many times throughout my day. Maybe all the "ick" I have had to deal with was all meant to create a gratitude attitude? Of course it helped me along with other lessons too.

10. Homeschooling has filled my life with something I never expected or looked for. I am grateful, (again, I know), for this opportunity to be with my boys in this manner. The experiences we have had together far outweigh any accomplishment I could have at work, or from something I could but due to a second income. This is what my life is about now and I am happy!

Meandering... so many thoughts and not enough time to blog about them one by one....after all I am a busy Mystik Momma!

24 April, 2009

Strawberry Fields

Here is the family, picking strawberries. The amazing thing to note is that this was done 7 weeks ago! Strawberry season is over already. It hasn't even begun in other parts of the world.

Living in South Florida still takes some getting used to......

22 April, 2009

What I'm Loving...

  1. Little boys who make love machines and shark zappers with their toy tools.
  2. Hubbies that carry large boxes into the apartment late at night.
  3. Wearing long pants in South Florida and not feeling sticky!
  4. Amazing homeschool mothers who keep me informed of the free stuff going on around town via email.
  5. Yummy split pea soup, made from our left over Easter Ham Bone. 
  6. Sleeping with the windows open.
  7. Having the monthly bills paid with money still in the account.  (Huge accomplishment on this one)!
  8. Getting the boys their own Yoga Mats, with intentions to have family Yoga Night, weekly.
  9. A new garbage disposal that doesn’t leak or sound like an air freighter taking off that shakes things off the sink counter!
  10. Buying sewing patterns for 99 cents each!  What a deal at Joann Fabrics!
  11. Dreaming of the lovely little girl dresses I will make for my nieces from said patterns.
  12. iGoogle – This beats facebook, myspace all of it!  My own personal front page with emails, and my blog subscriptions, cool artwork, inspirational quotes, zen meditation chimes, date, time, weather, just perfect!
  13. Mother Earth and all her wonders! 


Happy Earth Day

16 April, 2009

Spiritual Calling

So the past few weeks, my dreams have been on overdrive and leaving me exhausted upon waking. Those who do dream work, know this feeling and all you want to do is get some real sleep, but are grateful for the night journey, as it will lead you to greater understanding.

I have had 2 dreams with snakes. The first had me living in a camp style house, the kind that you would imagine at summer camp. Upon opening the screen door, this very large, I mean large, 8inch diameter, 10 foot long black thick snake moving with its head held up at 3 feet was slithering around loose in my house. For some reason, I knew this, even though I was shocked. The key was to enter the house, let it move around you until it recognized you and then you could go about your business and it would leave you alone. Kind of like a dog, barking, licking, jumping until it got over its initial excitement that you were home. As I was trying to be calm for the snake to realize I belonging in the house, it slithered right up next to me on the bed, all the way up to by shoulders and then receded. I woke up shortly after, freaked out a bit, as I am not a fan of snakes in my personal space. I also don't like coming across them in their space! (I do have a friend that has snakes in her home and they don't bother me in the least, because they do their thing in their tank and we always did our thing).

Second dream was last night. I was watching some sort of TV show with this man trying to escape the rushing waters and as he turned the bend and got out, you saw how he just narrowly dodged the alligator. As the alligator turned the bend, it came out of the TV and became a bright green snake with red stripes. Now I am on the toilette and turn my body shielding my face with my left hand and it bit down hard on the fleshy part of my thumb. My hand started to swell with liquid poison and I started to suck it out and spit into the sink. I am now standing the bathroom of my families cabin in Penn. I place I love from my childhood. As I am spitting out over and over again, the swelling goes down and I think that this meant something... I wake and my entire left arm is sore, borderline numb.

I read all the dream interpretive sites I could find today and it seems that I am either in danger of someone close to me and I am being warned... or I am on the verge of a spiritual awakening leading me to my inner wisdom. The problem is that both could be true.

Consequently, I have had a couple of great conversations with new people regarding my beliefs and spiritual position. I have "ministered"? Not certain what this really means, but I am awaiting more instruction, which I am sure will come.

There have also been dreams uncovering sacred nuts at the base of the cross, witnessing a small boys burial in Paris and the ones avoiding the possessed aunts in Scotland. As you can tell I am being taken on a wild ride! But I pray each night for clarity and instruction. So somewhere there is a riddle I need to solve. Any takers on helping me????

12 April, 2009

Easa Rises, Alleluia!

Gone are the trappings of the earth and what remains is our faith. Strong, pure, full of love, awe and wonder. Love is given to us all, "With Eyes to See and Ears to Hear", Truth to all! (TBOL)

11 April, 2009

The Wee Hours...

When one is unable to drift off peacefully to sleep, the mind starts to create, worry, contemplate, discover, budget, rethink, imagine, wonder, replay, scratch- for some odd reason it seems little bugs are on me when I am not sleeping..., fantasize, remember, and pray. All of these mental games were with me well into the wee hours of the morning. Most nights, I have no problem with falling to sleep. In fact it usually happens within 5 minutes during my prayers. I just drift off...

Last night, I was unable to. My prayers kept returning me to Easa, (Jesus), and Mary Magdalene. I also watched the Passion last night to prepare my thoughts on the most Holiest of Events, the Resurrection. It led to a discussion with hubbie that was not altogether horrible, but not the ones I imagine in my head filled with love, inspiration and spiritual fulfillment. I guess I don't know if I will ever share that with hubbie. It is something I so desire, but not certain if I will ever attain.

I said a full rosary last night, I prayed the six petal Our Father, in Gnostic Tradition, I called upon Archangel Michael the guardian saint of my Italian ancestors in Orsara and Saint Nicholas, the guardian saint of a place in Pulgia. As I woke this morning, I tried to remember when it was I actually went to sleep... but today I am rested, and eager for tomorrow's Glory.

In the wee hours we find our silence, our true self, I guess that is not at all bad and it can be restful.

09 April, 2009

Solo Preparations for Easter

Easter is just around the corner and this year, I don't really feel its presence. I am trying to get in the mood, more contemplative if you will. I think I have all my ingredients for the dinner, and a mock brunch. I cleaned out my storage room and reorganized to fit more stuff in, throw out the junk and move my craft supplies in clear bins so I can see what I have. Tomorrow would be a good day to clean up the house in general. Always good to clean out the house and home in order to prepare the way of the Resurrection and Rebirth!

I plan on watching The Passion. It would be terrific if hubbie would watch with me, without sleeping, rolling his eyes or looking bored. Truth is, he is Jewish and not the kind that celebrates. Oh no, he is the kind that is Jewish when it is convenient for him not to celebrate anything. He really doesn't know much about his religion or cultural upbringing. If pushed to answer any questions about the religion, he has no clue. I should be grateful to have a partner of a different religion that doesn't put up obstacles to my faith path, but truthfully, it would be nice to share the idea of faith with my spouse.

There are so many times I tried to bring up faith, religion, spirituality and to no avail the conversation always ends in an argument and hubbie becoming the ugly monster, once again. I finally figured out why he does this. He doesn't know anything I speak of and so a natural defense is to start spouting off that he doesn't need any of that, because he cooks, that is what he does and he doesn't have time for anything else. He doesn't know any answers to my questions and when I ask him to find some via any source, he never does.

I try very hard to incorporate the Jewish history into our celebrations when appropriate. I want the boys to learn about their father's cultural background. But it is just me doing it all. The boys are starting to ask many questions now about the Jewish people and the Catholics. So I pray that I do both faiths justice.

Then there is the fact that as a Catholic, I also try to embrace other world religions. I find value in all of the faiths, even the pagan ones. I would call myself a Spiritualist borderline Gnostic. If there was such a thing. Something so precious as my faith, would be a wonderful thing to share with hubbie. But until he is able to come to me, I will have to do my thing on my own. The boys will learn from me and I guess that isn't so bad.

There is a reason for everything and this too shall play itself out. So bring on Easter and its glory. I absolutely love this holiday, always did. This was the most important event for Jesus and the disciples, all of them, even the female ones. So many things changed from this point forward. The world was set in motion all from the selfless acts of Jesus. Amazing! Just Amazing!