This week has been a happy one for me. For the first time since I can remember, I am actually saying these words... "I am happy"! Hubbie laughed out loud upon hearing utter these simple words. Yes, I may not be the poster child for happiness, but lately, I am at peace with my life.
Yes I realize that happiness is within me and I am not ruined from experiencing this emotion. Childhood trauma's really wreak havoc on any shot at believing anything good can come to you!
Life is good, solid and stable. I get all of the life lessons and try to put the connections together quicker, sooner, better etc. I feel confident and again, the peace that surrounds me puts me at ease. I love how I feel and even though I can conjure up a list of "things could be better this way or that...", I really don't have to even go there.
I am living as organically as possible and in every sense of the word. I am making things... foods, clothes, crafts, gifts, etc. I am loving my hubbie and our dialogues and laughter. The boys fill me with challenges, but I understand this keeps me honest and I need that, we all do. So I accept it and love it. I am grateful everyday and just love the life I have right now.
Dare I say it again... I AM HAPPY!!!